Tuesday, May 18, 2010
I know
this is weird. But I really miss my little sister. She never talks to us anymore and she's always in her room. I know that's part of growing up, but I hate it. I want the little sister that wanted to be in my room all the time. Was hyper and loud all the time. I miss being close to her. I feel very nostalgic right now. I don't know why. I was looking at pictures of me and her, and we used to take so many together. I can't remember the last time we were even close enough to take a picture together. It makes me want to cry.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Thinking of you Darling..
Every night I rush to my bed, with hopes that maybe I'll get a chance to see you.
When I close my eyes I'm going out of my head. Lost in a fairytale, can you hold my hands and be my guide?
Clouds filled with stars cover the skies, and I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby. What kinda dream is this?
You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare, either way I don't wanna wake up from you.
My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where..Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air. 'Cause you're my sweet dream.
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare, either way I don't wanna wake up from you.
I mention you when I say my prayers, I wrap you around all of my thoughts. Boy you're my temporary high.
I wish that when I wake up you're there to wrap your arms around me for real, and tell me you'll stay by side.
Clouds filled with stars cover the skies, and I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby. What kinda dream is this?
Tattoo your name across my heart so it will remain. Not even death can make us part.
What kind of dream is this?
You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare, either way I don't wanna wake up from you.
My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where, Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air.
'Cause you're my perfect lullaby.
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
When I close my eyes I'm going out of my head. Lost in a fairytale, can you hold my hands and be my guide?
Clouds filled with stars cover the skies, and I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby. What kinda dream is this?
You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare, either way I don't wanna wake up from you.
My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where..Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air. 'Cause you're my sweet dream.
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare, either way I don't wanna wake up from you.
I mention you when I say my prayers, I wrap you around all of my thoughts. Boy you're my temporary high.
I wish that when I wake up you're there to wrap your arms around me for real, and tell me you'll stay by side.
Clouds filled with stars cover the skies, and I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby. What kinda dream is this?
Tattoo your name across my heart so it will remain. Not even death can make us part.
What kind of dream is this?
You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare, either way I don't wanna wake up from you.
My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where, Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air.
'Cause you're my perfect lullaby.
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Ahhhh
New Moon and Eclipse Pictures
New Moon and Eclipse Pictures
New Moon and Eclipse Pictures
New Moon and Eclipse Pictures
New Moon and Eclipse Pictures
He couldn't get any more gorgeous. God.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
I could really use a wish right now.
Today was not a good day. For me, at least. Hopefully Julie's day was good, cause she turned 18 :)
I'm so weird. I swear. I've caught myself staring into space SO much lately. I have way too much on my mind. I can't catch up.
Tomorrow will be my relaxing day, you know, until 3 when I have to go to work. Like always. I cant have a DAY. Not one. When I do, it goes by SO fast. I told Joanna I don't know how much more I can handle. It's so overwhelming when I've been doing it for so freaking long. Months of working 6 days out of every week. The funny thing is, I don't have any money? Where did it all go? You got me.
life sucks. my boyfriend agrees.
I'm so weird. I swear. I've caught myself staring into space SO much lately. I have way too much on my mind. I can't catch up.
Tomorrow will be my relaxing day, you know, until 3 when I have to go to work. Like always. I cant have a DAY. Not one. When I do, it goes by SO fast. I told Joanna I don't know how much more I can handle. It's so overwhelming when I've been doing it for so freaking long. Months of working 6 days out of every week. The funny thing is, I don't have any money? Where did it all go? You got me.
life sucks. my boyfriend agrees.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
me and my mom
watched videos and interviews of Charles Manson for hours tonight. I'm so interested in things like that. I'm so weird.
I've been reading Eclipse and I love it, it really is my escape from reality. I could read those all day everyday. Sometimes I wish it was reality, to have someone to treat you that well.
I don't think there's a man on this planet that would treat a girl like that.
And that absolutely sucks. I know girls say they have amazing boyfriends and perfect boyfriends, and my boyfriend is also a good one, but you know deep down inside how much you would trade to be the center of their world, like Bella is to Edward.
It is impossible, and that is why it pisses me off. Haha.
I'm trying to get adam to read them, or let me read them to him, to show him all the things he does for Bella. But you know boys. They refuse to like anything to do with Edward Cullen.
I just realized I had my boxers on backwards. Haha, WIN. I really need to lay down and go to sleep, but my days are never long enough, even though I do love sleep. I never want to.
I guess I'm going to go watch the nanny and try to pass out. l8tA
I've been reading Eclipse and I love it, it really is my escape from reality. I could read those all day everyday. Sometimes I wish it was reality, to have someone to treat you that well.
I don't think there's a man on this planet that would treat a girl like that.
And that absolutely sucks. I know girls say they have amazing boyfriends and perfect boyfriends, and my boyfriend is also a good one, but you know deep down inside how much you would trade to be the center of their world, like Bella is to Edward.
It is impossible, and that is why it pisses me off. Haha.
I'm trying to get adam to read them, or let me read them to him, to show him all the things he does for Bella. But you know boys. They refuse to like anything to do with Edward Cullen.
I just realized I had my boxers on backwards. Haha, WIN. I really need to lay down and go to sleep, but my days are never long enough, even though I do love sleep. I never want to.
I guess I'm going to go watch the nanny and try to pass out. l8tA
Monday, April 12, 2010
I try and I try.
Work sucked today, Joanna pissed me off as usual. She was being whiney so I didn't talk to her, so we didn't talk today. Haha.
I don't have another day off until next monday. Yayz.
I'm watching sixteen and pregnant. Are these the only girls they could find? There are millions of pregnant 16 year olds around here, let alone the whole country. Come on. Find some girls with some personality like the last season.
I don't really know what to talk about. Farmville is being slow, and I can't sleep.
I need something to do.
I guess i'll get off here for now.
byeeee
p.s- I am thankful for my mom. She is my best friend. I love her.
I don't have another day off until next monday. Yayz.
I'm watching sixteen and pregnant. Are these the only girls they could find? There are millions of pregnant 16 year olds around here, let alone the whole country. Come on. Find some girls with some personality like the last season.
I don't really know what to talk about. Farmville is being slow, and I can't sleep.
I need something to do.
I guess i'll get off here for now.
byeeee
p.s- I am thankful for my mom. She is my best friend. I love her.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
About to go to bed,
my eyes hurt. I never want the days to end.
I saw a group on facebook about Pheobe Prince and reading things like that breaks my heart.
She was bullied by a group of girls so bad that she hung herself by a staircase after school. That makes me sick. I feel bad for her, I just wish there had been someone there to stick up for her when she couldn't. This world is shit.
My little sister was being bullied like that, I think in seventh grade. Her and her friends would show me text messages the girl would send to them. She was telling people that they had crabs and would say she was going to beat them up. It doesn't seem like that big of deal to you, but to 12, 13 year olds it is. She would get in my car crying when I picked her up from school... she couldnt get on myspace without mean messages. I told her to beat the shit out of her. I would have. At 17, i was about 2 inches away from breaking some 12 year olds necks. Very close.
But when I would message the girl telling her that I knew about it and advised her to stop, she would say "oh i'm not doing that I don't know what youre talking about. I tried to talk to keegan and she wouldnt talk to me and was being mean." haha. People like that get on my nerves SO bad.
This probably doesn't mean anything to any of you, but if that girl was my little sister, or if something would've happened to her, some kids would be dead. Thanks.
I saw a group on facebook about Pheobe Prince and reading things like that breaks my heart.
She was bullied by a group of girls so bad that she hung herself by a staircase after school. That makes me sick. I feel bad for her, I just wish there had been someone there to stick up for her when she couldn't. This world is shit.
My little sister was being bullied like that, I think in seventh grade. Her and her friends would show me text messages the girl would send to them. She was telling people that they had crabs and would say she was going to beat them up. It doesn't seem like that big of deal to you, but to 12, 13 year olds it is. She would get in my car crying when I picked her up from school... she couldnt get on myspace without mean messages. I told her to beat the shit out of her. I would have. At 17, i was about 2 inches away from breaking some 12 year olds necks. Very close.
But when I would message the girl telling her that I knew about it and advised her to stop, she would say "oh i'm not doing that I don't know what youre talking about. I tried to talk to keegan and she wouldnt talk to me and was being mean." haha. People like that get on my nerves SO bad.
This probably doesn't mean anything to any of you, but if that girl was my little sister, or if something would've happened to her, some kids would be dead. Thanks.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
I hate waking up, and being back in the real world.
I had a really good dream last night, it started off just me and adam going to prom. For some reason, it was in like, New York or something. But throughout the dream I was getting ready. It might not have been prom, but it seemed like it. Everyone was all dressed up.
It's hard to remember, but my family and his family or whatever was staying in a big appartment building. It didn't even seem like adam, because it wasn't things he would do, i guess it was just his face. and kind of didn't seem like me, but my feelings felt real.
There were more things in the dream that he did that was sweet, but I can't really remember. Just coming to my door and kissing me, or wanting me to talk to him really bad, or stuff like that. It's hard to remember.
I was standing out on a balcany or something, watching down on the street where everyone was dressed up and it was late at night and adam started singing to me, it was loud like it was a concert and he ended up standing beside me holding my face and singing to me with everyone watching, it was so sweet. It was a slow song with sweet lyrics, I wish I could remember it. Later in the dream, my mom and my gma were driving me around and talking about adam asking them something and getting ready to do something sweet, and how perfect he was.
They dropped me off on the street where everyone was dressed up and I started walking and he came up walking behind me and asked me to marry him, i ran up to him crying and hugged him and he kissed me, blah blah blah..
It seems stupid talking about it now, but in the dream I felt SO loved. That's why it was amazing, because I will never feel that loved in my life.
I wish it was real.
I know this means nothing to anyone reading it. But I woke up feeling that loved, and it felt so good. But it went away so soon. I don't know why. I guess because it's unrealistic.
I felt like talking about it because it wasn't just the feeling you get when someone says something sweet, it was the feeling you get when you get you're heart broken, that strong, but just the opposite.
It was so weird.
I wish me and every girl who wanted to, could feel that loved once in their life.
My life consists of working, and being asked to do stuff for people. I never get to feel that loved, or needed. It depresses me.
bye.
It's hard to remember, but my family and his family or whatever was staying in a big appartment building. It didn't even seem like adam, because it wasn't things he would do, i guess it was just his face. and kind of didn't seem like me, but my feelings felt real.
There were more things in the dream that he did that was sweet, but I can't really remember. Just coming to my door and kissing me, or wanting me to talk to him really bad, or stuff like that. It's hard to remember.
I was standing out on a balcany or something, watching down on the street where everyone was dressed up and it was late at night and adam started singing to me, it was loud like it was a concert and he ended up standing beside me holding my face and singing to me with everyone watching, it was so sweet. It was a slow song with sweet lyrics, I wish I could remember it. Later in the dream, my mom and my gma were driving me around and talking about adam asking them something and getting ready to do something sweet, and how perfect he was.
They dropped me off on the street where everyone was dressed up and I started walking and he came up walking behind me and asked me to marry him, i ran up to him crying and hugged him and he kissed me, blah blah blah..
It seems stupid talking about it now, but in the dream I felt SO loved. That's why it was amazing, because I will never feel that loved in my life.
I wish it was real.
I know this means nothing to anyone reading it. But I woke up feeling that loved, and it felt so good. But it went away so soon. I don't know why. I guess because it's unrealistic.
I felt like talking about it because it wasn't just the feeling you get when someone says something sweet, it was the feeling you get when you get you're heart broken, that strong, but just the opposite.
It was so weird.
I wish me and every girl who wanted to, could feel that loved once in their life.
My life consists of working, and being asked to do stuff for people. I never get to feel that loved, or needed. It depresses me.
bye.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
been
in a bad mood lately.
ive always been the one walked over. im mean, but not to the people i love, and it slaps me in the face. im done with that. i'm not kissing anyones ass anymore. ever. in any situation. i wouldnt kiss the presidents ass right now. never will, i don't like him anyways.
im tired of working, tired of getting called into work when i have a day off, and tired of seeming like i never can do anything because of work.
i worked every weekday for 3 weeks. and made a little over 300. i know that seems like a lot. but not when i'm working my ass off everyday. it shouldve been more than that. that place uses theshit out of me.
it isn't fair.
it isn't fair that after 4 years of dating, i still get lied to about stupid crap. i have told you over and over not to lie to me.
i'm just mad right now.
ive always been the one walked over. im mean, but not to the people i love, and it slaps me in the face. im done with that. i'm not kissing anyones ass anymore. ever. in any situation. i wouldnt kiss the presidents ass right now. never will, i don't like him anyways.
im tired of working, tired of getting called into work when i have a day off, and tired of seeming like i never can do anything because of work.
i worked every weekday for 3 weeks. and made a little over 300. i know that seems like a lot. but not when i'm working my ass off everyday. it shouldve been more than that. that place uses theshit out of me.
it isn't fair.
it isn't fair that after 4 years of dating, i still get lied to about stupid crap. i have told you over and over not to lie to me.
i'm just mad right now.
Monday, March 8, 2010
03 08 2010
I finally found me a car, and I'm supposed to be getting it tomorrow. Thanks to Lori :)
I thank both of them for what they have done for me. It's so sweet, it makes me want to cry. It's a 99 Jeep Grand Cherokee, and its burgundy. They inside is grey, like I wanted. It only has 120,000 miles, and she sold it to us for only $4000.
When my grandparents took me to winston road to look at cars, we saw 3 99 jeeps like this one, each for $10,000. Which is insane. I'm so glad i'm getting a deal, I needed it so bad.
So, I went to the eye doctor today. It turns out that I need glasses for reading and driving, and being on the comp, etc.... I only went to get my eyes checked because my doctor told me to because of my migranes. I never thought i'd actually need glasses.
Besides all that new stuff, everythings been pretty normal. Having time to do NOTHING for working every day. :( But I have payments to make every 2 weeks now to pay her back, so i'm going to need some work.
My payments are $105 biweekly for a year. :/ But I'll be okay. Hopefully. At least I know by paying her back instead of the bank, my car wont be taken away if I don't pay. Which is a plus.
I'm so excited.
The bad news is...
when I had my wreck, the car in the opposite lane as me had pulled over to get out of my way when he saw that I lost control, had gotten a VERY small dent in it, apparently from the back end of my car. This dent was above the front weel.
About 5 minutes after I got out of my car, he left. Without talking to anyone.
So two weeks after my accident, he decides to go to the sheriffs department to get my records, go to my insurance company, and ask for money to fix this dent.
..
We knew NOTHING about this, until today. They apparently paid him $2500 to fix a small ass dent. Which puts 2 points on my insurance, which makes it cost about 3 times as much.... what an ASS, right? I'm sure he pocketed $2000 of that. Considering the dent couldve been fixed by a damn plunger. Thank you kind man, for costing me an extra $700 a year, that I DO NOT have!!!
Mom said she's gonna give his number to my dad, and letting my dad handle "his ass." Hahaha. dun dun dunnnnn
I thank both of them for what they have done for me. It's so sweet, it makes me want to cry. It's a 99 Jeep Grand Cherokee, and its burgundy. They inside is grey, like I wanted. It only has 120,000 miles, and she sold it to us for only $4000.
When my grandparents took me to winston road to look at cars, we saw 3 99 jeeps like this one, each for $10,000. Which is insane. I'm so glad i'm getting a deal, I needed it so bad.
So, I went to the eye doctor today. It turns out that I need glasses for reading and driving, and being on the comp, etc.... I only went to get my eyes checked because my doctor told me to because of my migranes. I never thought i'd actually need glasses.
Besides all that new stuff, everythings been pretty normal. Having time to do NOTHING for working every day. :( But I have payments to make every 2 weeks now to pay her back, so i'm going to need some work.
My payments are $105 biweekly for a year. :/ But I'll be okay. Hopefully. At least I know by paying her back instead of the bank, my car wont be taken away if I don't pay. Which is a plus.
I'm so excited.
The bad news is...
when I had my wreck, the car in the opposite lane as me had pulled over to get out of my way when he saw that I lost control, had gotten a VERY small dent in it, apparently from the back end of my car. This dent was above the front weel.
About 5 minutes after I got out of my car, he left. Without talking to anyone.
So two weeks after my accident, he decides to go to the sheriffs department to get my records, go to my insurance company, and ask for money to fix this dent.
..
We knew NOTHING about this, until today. They apparently paid him $2500 to fix a small ass dent. Which puts 2 points on my insurance, which makes it cost about 3 times as much.... what an ASS, right? I'm sure he pocketed $2000 of that. Considering the dent couldve been fixed by a damn plunger. Thank you kind man, for costing me an extra $700 a year, that I DO NOT have!!!
Mom said she's gonna give his number to my dad, and letting my dad handle "his ass." Hahaha. dun dun dunnnnn
Sunday, February 28, 2010
my headaches
are beginning to be unbearable. They get worse and worse as the day goes on. I've been trying to sleep more, but it's not helping. I guess i'm going to have to break down and go to the eye doctor. :(
I was dissapointed in my paycheck this week, considering i've worked every single week day for the past 3 weeks. But I guess that'll be on my next check. I really can't afford to be working my ass off for nothing. I actually need money this time. Because i'm still stuck at home with no transportation.
On the other hand, Adam has been really sweet lately. Calling me more, and coming over more. I don't know what's gotten into him! haha. It's probably just a phase. Not saying he'a not sweet other times, but not much. This morning he drove us to Salisbury to eat breakfast, and then we worked on his research paper, and then he drove us to winston to go to Chilis at like 6. He held my hand a lot, which is unusual, and kissed me a lot, which is also unusual. And cuddled a lot.
Anyway, I'm still looking for a car. I've got my eye on one, but I guess we are just waiting for the money to add up. It depresses me thinking that I'm eighteen years old and don't have any way to get anywhere. But I know I will get something. Right now, with only my money, i'm at $830. I'm very proud of myself.
Wishlist-
2010 Camaro.
HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Know any generous millionares? Let me know.........
I was dissapointed in my paycheck this week, considering i've worked every single week day for the past 3 weeks. But I guess that'll be on my next check. I really can't afford to be working my ass off for nothing. I actually need money this time. Because i'm still stuck at home with no transportation.
On the other hand, Adam has been really sweet lately. Calling me more, and coming over more. I don't know what's gotten into him! haha. It's probably just a phase. Not saying he'a not sweet other times, but not much. This morning he drove us to Salisbury to eat breakfast, and then we worked on his research paper, and then he drove us to winston to go to Chilis at like 6. He held my hand a lot, which is unusual, and kissed me a lot, which is also unusual. And cuddled a lot.
Anyway, I'm still looking for a car. I've got my eye on one, but I guess we are just waiting for the money to add up. It depresses me thinking that I'm eighteen years old and don't have any way to get anywhere. But I know I will get something. Right now, with only my money, i'm at $830. I'm very proud of myself.
Wishlist-
2010 Camaro.
HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Know any generous millionares? Let me know.........
Thursday, February 18, 2010
got from skylar
time started - 12:40 AM. Probably a bad idea.
full name - Kayla Breanna Tysinger
nickname(s) - toots, keela, baby
birthday - December 22, 1991
where were you born - North Carolina
height - 5'3" I NEVER KNOW THIS ANSWER
weight - 125
hair color - brown
eye color - Blue
shoe size - depends, 4 to 7
ring size - 7 I think
skin type (freckles, tan, albino, etc.) - Pale for now
blood type - I don't know
siblings - full- Keegan. Half- Seth and his new baby brother. I havent been told a name yet
tattoos - e
piercings - ears
hobbies - drawing, listening to music, playing sims, piano
favorite:
color - grey and blue
food - right now, Salami and ham flatbread with extra provolone cheeeese
candy - oreo CAKESTERS HELL YEAH
type of cheese - provolone
pizza topping - Cheese, or Hawian. Either
salad dressing - Ranch
sandwich - Salami and ham flatbread from work ^^^
cereal - fckn cinnamon toast crunch
fruit - Granny Smith Apples.
vegetable - Corn on the cob.
berry - none.
cake - Chocolate
book - Eclipse
movie - Right now, Pride and Prejudice. I LOVE movies.
tv show - Family Guy 4EVR
website - Facebook/msp
radio station - 98.7, 100.3, 102.1
font - Arial
cartoon character - Spongebob, and the Griffins.
actor - whew. that list is way too long. Rob Pattinson, Matthew MacFayden, Ed Norton, Ryan Gosling(?), James Franco, Johnny Depp
actress - Reese Witherspoon, Angelina Jolie
cd - burned cds
song - way too many to pick
music group - same as above
music type - All
day of the week - Friday or Saturday
month - December
season - Spring
holiday - Christmas
shampoo - Herbal Essence Dangerously Straight
conditioner - same ^
phrase - uhhhhhh
store - Hollister probably
weather - Warm with wind and sun. Rain late at night.
restaurant - Zaxbys. God I wish I wouldn't have thought of that.
channel - Nickelodeon
weekend activity - sleeping
hangout - mi casa
sport to watch - football or gymnastics
sport to play - football, gymnastics
animal - dog. I have a crab and a new fish!
flower - daisy
board game - 1313 Dead End Drive
party game - Strip poker? Beer pong? hahhaa
story from childhood - a lot
body part - face
have you ever:
been on a train - yes, twice
been on a plane - nope
been in a car accident - :(
caused a car accident - yeah
run into a wall - yeah
burned a potato chip - wtf?
almost burned the house down - don't think so..
smoked - yes
been drunk - yes
broken the law - yes
burned a cd (if yes, the one above is yes) - yes
kissed someone of the opposite sex - Yes
kissed someone of the same sex - yes
gotten engaged - ha. no.
had an online relationship - no
been rejected by a crush - I dont knowwwwwww
loved - Yep
made yourself cry to get out of trouble - yes, 8th grade, being pulled over, etc.
cried in public - school
cried over a movie - yeah
fallen asleep in a movie theater - STEALTH WAS BORING AS HELL. yes
given someone a bath - pets
been to a boarding school - hell no
been home-schooled - no
lost a valuable item - my car
bungee jumped - the thing at myrtle beach with the seats.
skied - snowboarded (?)
met the president - no thanks
met a celebrity - yes, a few
gotten a cavity - no
shopped at abercrombie & fitch - yeah
made a prank call - Yes
skipped school - Yes.
faked sick to get out of school - Yes.
climbed a tree - Yes.
fallen from a tree - YES:(
broken a bone - Yes.
sprained anything - yes
passed out - Yes.
made yourself pass out - don't think so
been to disney world - No.
been to a theme park (not disney) - Yes.
said i love you and meant it (not to a relative) - Yes.
made a model volcano (working model) - yes
made a clover leaf with your tounge - No, I wish, I've tried
past:
what did you do yesterday - Worked
memory you miss the most - when my dad lived with us, my life when i was little, and driving my jeep
memory you want to forget - None?
something you regretted after it was done - Idk.
the last:
song you heard - a song by tool
cd you bought - the last cd I burned - Chelsea Grin
thing you said - thing you said
time you cried - my wreck
movie seen in a theater - Avatar I think
thing you ate - oreo cakesters
person who called - adam
nail polish shade worn - yellow
time you showered - an hour ago
person who complimented you - i dont know
at this moment:
what are you listening to - George Lopez
what are you wearing - t shirt, underwear
what are you thinking - tired, work in the AM
what are you scared of most - right now, my grandparents dying.
future:
occupation - nurse. Shitload of money hopefully
marriage site - church
honeymoon - Ireland
place to live - It depends.
kids - 2
car - Black 2010 Camaro
what are you doing tomorrow - going to work and maybe a show
will there be a WWIII - prolly.
will politics ever be truthful - I don't give a shit about politics. Kiss my ass.
do you believe in:
heaven - Yes.
hell - Yes.
angels - Yes.
devil - Yes.
God - Yes.
buddha - Yes.
aliens - Yes.
ghosts - Yes.
spirit (soul) - Yes.
soulmates - Yes.
reincarnation - No.
love at first sight - no.
karma - Yes.
love in general - Yes.
luck - yes.
yourself - yes.
who and when was your first crush - Chaiffin (?) my aunts wedding when i was like 4
a celebrity crush - rob pat
whose number do you want - ^^^ :)
what is something you dont understand about the opposite sex - pervs. dumb. liking anything with a vagina.
on scale of one to ten, how romantic are you - 7. sure.
what do you look for personality-wise - pretty, funny, sweet, bigger than me
something the opposite sex wears that you like - jeans
something the opposite sex wears that you don't like - nothing really
the most romantic thing that has happened to you - uh
do you want to hug somebody right now - sure. my bear, to sleep
describe:
mellow - cooooooool
melancholy - crying
the perfect date - ireland
the perfect mate - i'm guessing adam. he's not perfect though.
why manhole covers are round - I do not care. holes are round.
one or the other:
coke/pepsi - Pepsi!
sprite/7-up - Sprite
vanilla/chocolate - Chocolate
flowers/candy - candy
book/magazine - both? i guess book
tv/radio - tv i guess
glass half empty/half full - both
democrat/republican - dgaf - it's all shit
colored pencils/markers - colored pencils get on my nerves
coffee/tea - both. But I can't drink coffee. Tea
sun/moon - Moon.
day/night - uhhh idk
hot/cold - middle
dog/cat - don't make me choose i'll feel bad.
button/zipper - zipper, i'm lazy
cotton/feather pillow - Feather, or both.
blue/purple - Blew
jeans/shorts - jeans
long distance relationship/none - i'm not sure about that one. maybe for a short period of time long distance.
mechanical/regular pencil - Depends, writing- mechanical. Drawing-regular
romantic comedy/thriller - Thriller
nsync/bsb - Nsync
peanut butter/jelly - Ew. Niether.
waffles/pancakes - Pancakes.
letter/email - Letter i guess
florida/california - never been to either.
pizza/burgers - BURGERS
hat/visor - hat
movie at home/in theater - At home
first thing you think of when you hear:
yellow - lemonade. mmm
red lipstick - marilyn monroe
socks - shoes
cowtipping - Cars, haha
moulin rouge - slut
greenland - should be green
iceland - should be ice
harry potter - hogwarts
red - MY JEEP I MISS YOU
blackberry - ew
rose - pretty
rooster - Alice in Chains.
taxes - suck... you know, thanks to OBAMA I HAD TO PAY $54 instead of getting any taxes back. FUCKER.
bill clinton - suckz
whipped cream - whipped cream
george w. bush - AMERKIN FLEG
lollipops - no one says lollipops except lil wayne apparently.
dreams - in yours
love - adam
guys - beer
south park - love it
boy bands - ha. Isn't that most bands?
pengiuns - Happy Feet
girls - sluts
death - no
spoons - sliver
junk mail - email
dairy - milk
your father - his smile and smell
pizza - no thanks
vitamin - Flinstones (?)
are you:
happy - yes
sad - No
religious - yea
crazy - at times
messy - Sometimes
mad - No
slacker - Sometimes
nerd - Sometimes
bookworm - Sometimes
jock - No
preppy - No
selfish - no
giving - Yes
obsessive - No
violent - yeah
calm - sometimes
peaceful - sometimes
mellow - sometimes
eccentric - Yes
caring - Yes
untrustworthy - No
loyal - Yes
patriotic - eh not really
colorful - sometimes
artistic - Yes
miscellaneous:
what color is your jacket - i'm not wearing one.
do you shave - yea
what color is your razor - i have a purple one, an orange one, and a light pink one
what size is your bed - double I think
what color crayon would you be - purple probably, or grey
what are the last four digits of you phone number - 2342
how long does it take you to shower - 30 minutes, I like hot water
who do you trust the most - my mom
is cussing a necessity in life - no, it's a habit
how about coffee - no
is the world screwed - probably.
what something you can't live without - sleep
what time did you fall asleep - Last night, 6 am.
can you live without a microwave - If I had to, but right now mostly all we have is microwavable food.
what do think about death - hate it
where and when do you want to be married - Not during college.
why is the sky blue - because
what is a good trait about yourself - I'm caring.
how do you react to change - Usually I don't like it.
do you talk to yourself - yeah sometimes.
what is your opinion on love - love
if you wrote a book, what would it be about - probably a fantasy book
time finished - 11:40 pm, Feb. 20. I saved it as a draft and came back to it.
full name - Kayla Breanna Tysinger
nickname(s) - toots, keela, baby
birthday - December 22, 1991
where were you born - North Carolina
height - 5'3" I NEVER KNOW THIS ANSWER
weight - 125
hair color - brown
eye color - Blue
shoe size - depends, 4 to 7
ring size - 7 I think
skin type (freckles, tan, albino, etc.) - Pale for now
blood type - I don't know
siblings - full- Keegan. Half- Seth and his new baby brother. I havent been told a name yet
tattoos - e
piercings - ears
hobbies - drawing, listening to music, playing sims, piano
favorite:
color - grey and blue
food - right now, Salami and ham flatbread with extra provolone cheeeese
candy - oreo CAKESTERS HELL YEAH
type of cheese - provolone
pizza topping - Cheese, or Hawian. Either
salad dressing - Ranch
sandwich - Salami and ham flatbread from work ^^^
cereal - fckn cinnamon toast crunch
fruit - Granny Smith Apples.
vegetable - Corn on the cob.
berry - none.
cake - Chocolate
book - Eclipse
movie - Right now, Pride and Prejudice. I LOVE movies.
tv show - Family Guy 4EVR
website - Facebook/msp
radio station - 98.7, 100.3, 102.1
font - Arial
cartoon character - Spongebob, and the Griffins.
actor - whew. that list is way too long. Rob Pattinson, Matthew MacFayden, Ed Norton, Ryan Gosling(?), James Franco, Johnny Depp
actress - Reese Witherspoon, Angelina Jolie
cd - burned cds
song - way too many to pick
music group - same as above
music type - All
day of the week - Friday or Saturday
month - December
season - Spring
holiday - Christmas
shampoo - Herbal Essence Dangerously Straight
conditioner - same ^
phrase - uhhhhhh
store - Hollister probably
weather - Warm with wind and sun. Rain late at night.
restaurant - Zaxbys. God I wish I wouldn't have thought of that.
channel - Nickelodeon
weekend activity - sleeping
hangout - mi casa
sport to watch - football or gymnastics
sport to play - football, gymnastics
animal - dog. I have a crab and a new fish!
flower - daisy
board game - 1313 Dead End Drive
party game - Strip poker? Beer pong? hahhaa
story from childhood - a lot
body part - face
have you ever:
been on a train - yes, twice
been on a plane - nope
been in a car accident - :(
caused a car accident - yeah
run into a wall - yeah
burned a potato chip - wtf?
almost burned the house down - don't think so..
smoked - yes
been drunk - yes
broken the law - yes
burned a cd (if yes, the one above is yes) - yes
kissed someone of the opposite sex - Yes
kissed someone of the same sex - yes
gotten engaged - ha. no.
had an online relationship - no
been rejected by a crush - I dont knowwwwwww
loved - Yep
made yourself cry to get out of trouble - yes, 8th grade, being pulled over, etc.
cried in public - school
cried over a movie - yeah
fallen asleep in a movie theater - STEALTH WAS BORING AS HELL. yes
given someone a bath - pets
been to a boarding school - hell no
been home-schooled - no
lost a valuable item - my car
bungee jumped - the thing at myrtle beach with the seats.
skied - snowboarded (?)
met the president - no thanks
met a celebrity - yes, a few
gotten a cavity - no
shopped at abercrombie & fitch - yeah
made a prank call - Yes
skipped school - Yes.
faked sick to get out of school - Yes.
climbed a tree - Yes.
fallen from a tree - YES:(
broken a bone - Yes.
sprained anything - yes
passed out - Yes.
made yourself pass out - don't think so
been to disney world - No.
been to a theme park (not disney) - Yes.
said i love you and meant it (not to a relative) - Yes.
made a model volcano (working model) - yes
made a clover leaf with your tounge - No, I wish, I've tried
past:
what did you do yesterday - Worked
memory you miss the most - when my dad lived with us, my life when i was little, and driving my jeep
memory you want to forget - None?
something you regretted after it was done - Idk.
the last:
song you heard - a song by tool
cd you bought - the last cd I burned - Chelsea Grin
thing you said - thing you said
time you cried - my wreck
movie seen in a theater - Avatar I think
thing you ate - oreo cakesters
person who called - adam
nail polish shade worn - yellow
time you showered - an hour ago
person who complimented you - i dont know
at this moment:
what are you listening to - George Lopez
what are you wearing - t shirt, underwear
what are you thinking - tired, work in the AM
what are you scared of most - right now, my grandparents dying.
future:
occupation - nurse. Shitload of money hopefully
marriage site - church
honeymoon - Ireland
place to live - It depends.
kids - 2
car - Black 2010 Camaro
what are you doing tomorrow - going to work and maybe a show
will there be a WWIII - prolly.
will politics ever be truthful - I don't give a shit about politics. Kiss my ass.
do you believe in:
heaven - Yes.
hell - Yes.
angels - Yes.
devil - Yes.
God - Yes.
buddha - Yes.
aliens - Yes.
ghosts - Yes.
spirit (soul) - Yes.
soulmates - Yes.
reincarnation - No.
love at first sight - no.
karma - Yes.
love in general - Yes.
luck - yes.
yourself - yes.
who and when was your first crush - Chaiffin (?) my aunts wedding when i was like 4
a celebrity crush - rob pat
whose number do you want - ^^^ :)
what is something you dont understand about the opposite sex - pervs. dumb. liking anything with a vagina.
on scale of one to ten, how romantic are you - 7. sure.
what do you look for personality-wise - pretty, funny, sweet, bigger than me
something the opposite sex wears that you like - jeans
something the opposite sex wears that you don't like - nothing really
the most romantic thing that has happened to you - uh
do you want to hug somebody right now - sure. my bear, to sleep
describe:
mellow - cooooooool
melancholy - crying
the perfect date - ireland
the perfect mate - i'm guessing adam. he's not perfect though.
why manhole covers are round - I do not care. holes are round.
one or the other:
coke/pepsi - Pepsi!
sprite/7-up - Sprite
vanilla/chocolate - Chocolate
flowers/candy - candy
book/magazine - both? i guess book
tv/radio - tv i guess
glass half empty/half full - both
democrat/republican - dgaf - it's all shit
colored pencils/markers - colored pencils get on my nerves
coffee/tea - both. But I can't drink coffee. Tea
sun/moon - Moon.
day/night - uhhh idk
hot/cold - middle
dog/cat - don't make me choose i'll feel bad.
button/zipper - zipper, i'm lazy
cotton/feather pillow - Feather, or both.
blue/purple - Blew
jeans/shorts - jeans
long distance relationship/none - i'm not sure about that one. maybe for a short period of time long distance.
mechanical/regular pencil - Depends, writing- mechanical. Drawing-regular
romantic comedy/thriller - Thriller
nsync/bsb - Nsync
peanut butter/jelly - Ew. Niether.
waffles/pancakes - Pancakes.
letter/email - Letter i guess
florida/california - never been to either.
pizza/burgers - BURGERS
hat/visor - hat
movie at home/in theater - At home
first thing you think of when you hear:
yellow - lemonade. mmm
red lipstick - marilyn monroe
socks - shoes
cowtipping - Cars, haha
moulin rouge - slut
greenland - should be green
iceland - should be ice
harry potter - hogwarts
red - MY JEEP I MISS YOU
blackberry - ew
rose - pretty
rooster - Alice in Chains.
taxes - suck... you know, thanks to OBAMA I HAD TO PAY $54 instead of getting any taxes back. FUCKER.
bill clinton - suckz
whipped cream - whipped cream
george w. bush - AMERKIN FLEG
lollipops - no one says lollipops except lil wayne apparently.
dreams - in yours
love - adam
guys - beer
south park - love it
boy bands - ha. Isn't that most bands?
pengiuns - Happy Feet
girls - sluts
death - no
spoons - sliver
junk mail - email
dairy - milk
your father - his smile and smell
pizza - no thanks
vitamin - Flinstones (?)
are you:
happy - yes
sad - No
religious - yea
crazy - at times
messy - Sometimes
mad - No
slacker - Sometimes
nerd - Sometimes
bookworm - Sometimes
jock - No
preppy - No
selfish - no
giving - Yes
obsessive - No
violent - yeah
calm - sometimes
peaceful - sometimes
mellow - sometimes
eccentric - Yes
caring - Yes
untrustworthy - No
loyal - Yes
patriotic - eh not really
colorful - sometimes
artistic - Yes
miscellaneous:
what color is your jacket - i'm not wearing one.
do you shave - yea
what color is your razor - i have a purple one, an orange one, and a light pink one
what size is your bed - double I think
what color crayon would you be - purple probably, or grey
what are the last four digits of you phone number - 2342
how long does it take you to shower - 30 minutes, I like hot water
who do you trust the most - my mom
is cussing a necessity in life - no, it's a habit
how about coffee - no
is the world screwed - probably.
what something you can't live without - sleep
what time did you fall asleep - Last night, 6 am.
can you live without a microwave - If I had to, but right now mostly all we have is microwavable food.
what do think about death - hate it
where and when do you want to be married - Not during college.
why is the sky blue - because
what is a good trait about yourself - I'm caring.
how do you react to change - Usually I don't like it.
do you talk to yourself - yeah sometimes.
what is your opinion on love - love
if you wrote a book, what would it be about - probably a fantasy book
time finished - 11:40 pm, Feb. 20. I saved it as a draft and came back to it.
Monday, February 15, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
i am so sick of
work. We have a meeting tomorrow at 330, that i can't go to, but it's about me and adam closing last night. we were there until 10:30. trying to get everything done. I was shaking all night because we were so busy and i was behind. I almost cried like 5 times because i couldnt handle it. i have so much on my mind, and that just adds to it. we are in trouble because "the store was nasty" WE BARELY HAD TIME TO DO ANYTHING. i have a certain time schedule, and i was 2 and a half hours behind. and to top that off, 3 people came in a 9:55, (we close at ten), and ate in there until 10:25, which means we cant sweep or mop until they are gone. and she wants to know why the floors look bad??????
most importantly, when i got there, the 2 people that worked before me didnt do anything they were supposed to do. which leaves who to do it??? Exactly, ME. Why are they getting paid as much as me when i'm doing half of their work? Explain that.
what usually takes half an hour took me 2 hours yesterday because people kept coming in. I couldn't pick up their slack because i was there by myself from 4 to 5 with 20 people in line for an hour.
i know everyone who reads this doesn't understand it. But I have stayed 2 hours after my shift ended to help people clean plenty of time. Why the fuck do people leave me with the rest of their work to do? I do my shit for them, but they can't do it for me?
All i'm saying is, im tired of picking up everyone elses fucking slack and being the one that gets bitched at for it.
i feel like beating the fuck out of someone.
good thing i'm at home by myself right now/
most importantly, when i got there, the 2 people that worked before me didnt do anything they were supposed to do. which leaves who to do it??? Exactly, ME. Why are they getting paid as much as me when i'm doing half of their work? Explain that.
what usually takes half an hour took me 2 hours yesterday because people kept coming in. I couldn't pick up their slack because i was there by myself from 4 to 5 with 20 people in line for an hour.
i know everyone who reads this doesn't understand it. But I have stayed 2 hours after my shift ended to help people clean plenty of time. Why the fuck do people leave me with the rest of their work to do? I do my shit for them, but they can't do it for me?
All i'm saying is, im tired of picking up everyone elses fucking slack and being the one that gets bitched at for it.
i feel like beating the fuck out of someone.
good thing i'm at home by myself right now/
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Mom
got us the "Beach Bodies" work out thing. It's like p90x. I have a feeling i'm going to be busting my ass. Well, i've been wanting to do something like that, so, wish us luck. It's going to be hard.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
God
I miss my car more and more everyday. And you don't know how much that is. One, I miss it because I loved it. It will probably be my favorite car of all time, no matter what I end up getting in life. Two, I spent so much time in it. Three, it ran so good, and was so comfortable. Four, I sit at home every day, alone. I used to not mind sitting at home, because if I wanted to go somewhere, I could. But I can't now. :( I miss seeing it parked in my carport. I have yet to empty the trashbag full of the things I had in there, because I know I will cry.
Someone answer this: WHY did that have to happen to me?
To someone who works for everything. And someone who can't afford to get anything else? And most importantly, someone who loved and was thankful for it.
I'm sorry that it's all I talk about. But it's all I think about lately.
It's depressing me. Yeah I know, "be thankful Im okay." Okay, I am. But I AM NOT thankful for my car being trashed. I feel 14/15 again. My grandma takes me to work, my mom picks me up. That's the only place I've been since Thursday when it happened. I'm just not used to being stuck in my house. I sit here all day. What I did today: woke up at around lunch, took a bath, watched tv, straightened my hair, watched tv, played sims, ate, watched tv.
The only good thing about it is I'm spending more time with my family.
Niether me, or my mom, have any exrra money. No money saved up. So what the fuck am I supposed to do? I guess what everyone else without cars do. But I'm not used to it.
My mom doesn't even have money for HER a car, which is why she drives my grandparent's car. The world is so fucked up.
Thanks for letting me vent, blog.
Someone answer this: WHY did that have to happen to me?
To someone who works for everything. And someone who can't afford to get anything else? And most importantly, someone who loved and was thankful for it.
I'm sorry that it's all I talk about. But it's all I think about lately.
It's depressing me. Yeah I know, "be thankful Im okay." Okay, I am. But I AM NOT thankful for my car being trashed. I feel 14/15 again. My grandma takes me to work, my mom picks me up. That's the only place I've been since Thursday when it happened. I'm just not used to being stuck in my house. I sit here all day. What I did today: woke up at around lunch, took a bath, watched tv, straightened my hair, watched tv, played sims, ate, watched tv.
The only good thing about it is I'm spending more time with my family.
Niether me, or my mom, have any exrra money. No money saved up. So what the fuck am I supposed to do? I guess what everyone else without cars do. But I'm not used to it.
My mom doesn't even have money for HER a car, which is why she drives my grandparent's car. The world is so fucked up.
Thanks for letting me vent, blog.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Friday, January 29, 2010
I
got new speakers, and I love them. I'm deciding on my appt at view askew. He has a spot saved for me, I just gotta call 'em and tell him I want it. Anyway, I don't feel so hot. So I'm going to lay down and watch roseanne. :)
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
I have worked
38 hours, in the past six days. My paycheck better be awesome or I am going to bitch...bitch....and bitch some more.
I am so glad that school is over with. I'm going to miss Art class, yearbook, Mr. Wagstaff, ms lynn, ms goodnight, ms kiefer, uhhhhh, mr robertson, ms williams.
But I could always go and see them. So I don't mind. Anyways, being out of school gives me time to do things for me. I haven't been able to do that in so long. I've been exercising, bleaching my teeth, wearing pretty make up, and relaxing. And it feels so good. I'm planning to start going to the tanning bed a little bit. I stopped going for awhile and saying that I wouldn't go. But a few times won't hurt, and that's all it'll take for my pale skin to get some color, just a few times.
I'm saving up my money to buy some new speakers for my car, since all mine do is rattle. It's so ANNOYING. Because when I'm by myself, my music is really loud and it rattles even worse. Then I'm going to buy me a few new clothes. Other than that i'm saving it.
My mom told me my "papaw" as I call him (I hate typing that it sounds so much worse than when you say it) is giving me $2000 when I graduate. It's insane because I've never had over 400 to my name, ever. And I'm saving that and putting it towards a new car. Don't get me started on what I would get. I have no clue. I love cars so much that it's an impossible decision.
I'm sleeping better once again. Even though I'm up right now, doing this. I have to be at work at 11 am tomorrow. Oh well. Hopefully I get off when I'm supposed to. I'm getting tired of working. But I need it. That's life! How wonderful, right?
I am so glad that school is over with. I'm going to miss Art class, yearbook, Mr. Wagstaff, ms lynn, ms goodnight, ms kiefer, uhhhhh, mr robertson, ms williams.
But I could always go and see them. So I don't mind. Anyways, being out of school gives me time to do things for me. I haven't been able to do that in so long. I've been exercising, bleaching my teeth, wearing pretty make up, and relaxing. And it feels so good. I'm planning to start going to the tanning bed a little bit. I stopped going for awhile and saying that I wouldn't go. But a few times won't hurt, and that's all it'll take for my pale skin to get some color, just a few times.
I'm saving up my money to buy some new speakers for my car, since all mine do is rattle. It's so ANNOYING. Because when I'm by myself, my music is really loud and it rattles even worse. Then I'm going to buy me a few new clothes. Other than that i'm saving it.
My mom told me my "papaw" as I call him (I hate typing that it sounds so much worse than when you say it) is giving me $2000 when I graduate. It's insane because I've never had over 400 to my name, ever. And I'm saving that and putting it towards a new car. Don't get me started on what I would get. I have no clue. I love cars so much that it's an impossible decision.
I'm sleeping better once again. Even though I'm up right now, doing this. I have to be at work at 11 am tomorrow. Oh well. Hopefully I get off when I'm supposed to. I'm getting tired of working. But I need it. That's life! How wonderful, right?
Sunday, January 24, 2010
hewo
I'm laying in the bed listening to it rain. And bleaching my teeth. I haven't done this in forever. It tastes disgusting. :(
Anyways... Anyone who knows me knows that I don't get scared a lot at all.
Well, I watched Paranormal Activity last night, and laying in my bed alone is a lot more difficult than it has been before. Just sayin'. I'm creeping myself out.
I don't advise anyone to watch it by yourself, or sleep by yourself after watching it.
Ghosts don't scare me at all. Nothing really ever has. But a demon, is a different story. It might not have been a big deal to anyone else, but I guess I just thought about it too much.
Anyways, i'd like to stop thinking about it.
skdjgklsdgsd I feel like i'm going to throw up because i just swallowed some of this bleaching stuff. I'll be back
Anyways... Anyone who knows me knows that I don't get scared a lot at all.
Well, I watched Paranormal Activity last night, and laying in my bed alone is a lot more difficult than it has been before. Just sayin'. I'm creeping myself out.
I don't advise anyone to watch it by yourself, or sleep by yourself after watching it.
Ghosts don't scare me at all. Nothing really ever has. But a demon, is a different story. It might not have been a big deal to anyone else, but I guess I just thought about it too much.
Anyways, i'd like to stop thinking about it.
skdjgklsdgsd I feel like i'm going to throw up because i just swallowed some of this bleaching stuff. I'll be back
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Keeping my own head up
seems weird when you used to do it for me. I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out. I'm holding on, i'm barely holding onto you. I'm hanging on another day, just to see what you will throw my way. And I'm hanging on to the words you say.
You said that I will be okay.
I love Lifehouse. I love the calm music, and his voice.
Everything by Lifehouse, I want that song played at my wedding. Go listen. It makes me cry everytime.
-----------------
Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
<3
I just need you to try.
You said that I will be okay.
I love Lifehouse. I love the calm music, and his voice.
Everything by Lifehouse, I want that song played at my wedding. Go listen. It makes me cry everytime.
-----------------
Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
<3
I just need you to try.
Monday, January 18, 2010
I will not let you go
I had a bad dream last night. It was weird. Adam had gotten another girlfriend. I was at his house for some reason and she was there with him. It was so sad, I really don't know what I would do. I don't mean to sound cheesy, but I would be lost. Anyways.... the girl said something, and I reached and hit her in the face really hard and she fell to the ground. She kept saying stuff and I told her to come outside. Outside, I beat her with a broomstick at first and then kept punching her. And left crying.
Isn't that weird? That's probably what would really happen to tell you the truth. Haha. So if you know anyone trying to take my bf, advise them not to. Haha :D
I felt really weird when I woke up, I was crying a little. I HATE that. I hate having dreams and waking up scared, or shaking, or crying. I'm laying in my mom's bed right now and it's so comfortable.
I like being alone sometimes. I'm weird.
I can't believe Wednesday is my last day of highschool. It amazes me, but how many times have I said that? Plenty enough.
"My love for you is so overpowering, I'm afraid that I will disappear"
I need to visit Mr. Jason Sheeley (?)
;)
"Well, two spinning spheres, two spinning spheres in a bed of stars. Silence is super. Staring into space, I wonder where you are. You're all that I've ever needed. I know that you won't feel it. Drift out into darkness, lost out on horizon. It's alright, it's alright. I'll be your respirator. I'll be your pressure suit. It's alright, it's alright. Violently clear the upper atmosphere, raging out your heart. Somewhere far beneath, your pointed tongue and teeth, is where you really are. Drift out into darkness, lost out on horizon. It's alright, it's alright. I'll be your respirator. I'll be your pressure suit. It's alright, it's alright. I'll be your pressure suit. It's alright, it's alright. I will not let you go. Two spinning spheres, they spin together. I'm gon' spin alone. I don't know how I can do this. I don't know how to get through. It's alright, It's alright. I can't stop loving you. It's alright, It's alright. I'll be your respirator. I'll be your pressure suit. It's alright, It's alright. I'll be your four leaf clover. I'll be your pressure suit. I'll be your angel wings. I'll be your parachute. I'll be your running reason. I'll be your only reason. I can't stop loving you.
It's alright, It's alright. I'll be your respirator. I'll be your pressure suit."
Isn't that weird? That's probably what would really happen to tell you the truth. Haha. So if you know anyone trying to take my bf, advise them not to. Haha :D
I felt really weird when I woke up, I was crying a little. I HATE that. I hate having dreams and waking up scared, or shaking, or crying. I'm laying in my mom's bed right now and it's so comfortable.
I like being alone sometimes. I'm weird.
I can't believe Wednesday is my last day of highschool. It amazes me, but how many times have I said that? Plenty enough.
"My love for you is so overpowering, I'm afraid that I will disappear"
I need to visit Mr. Jason Sheeley (?)
;)
"Well, two spinning spheres, two spinning spheres in a bed of stars. Silence is super. Staring into space, I wonder where you are. You're all that I've ever needed. I know that you won't feel it. Drift out into darkness, lost out on horizon. It's alright, it's alright. I'll be your respirator. I'll be your pressure suit. It's alright, it's alright. Violently clear the upper atmosphere, raging out your heart. Somewhere far beneath, your pointed tongue and teeth, is where you really are. Drift out into darkness, lost out on horizon. It's alright, it's alright. I'll be your respirator. I'll be your pressure suit. It's alright, it's alright. I'll be your pressure suit. It's alright, it's alright. I will not let you go. Two spinning spheres, they spin together. I'm gon' spin alone. I don't know how I can do this. I don't know how to get through. It's alright, It's alright. I can't stop loving you. It's alright, It's alright. I'll be your respirator. I'll be your pressure suit. It's alright, It's alright. I'll be your four leaf clover. I'll be your pressure suit. I'll be your angel wings. I'll be your parachute. I'll be your running reason. I'll be your only reason. I can't stop loving you.
It's alright, It's alright. I'll be your respirator. I'll be your pressure suit."
Thursday, January 14, 2010
F.Y.I
You can't say you hate drama, but cause it. It's backwards, and makes no sense. I don't see why it's so hard for people to say things to people in person.
2 more days. Of highschool, I mean. I would like to thank God for getting me through this tretcherous time. I am also thankful to have the senior project over with. That's a 4,000 lbs. elephant that was taken off my back. I'm sorry Jessica, and Skylar, for you having to do it next semester. Just try and start and finish early. It'll work out better. I finished mine completely today. Haha.
I feel like I'm going to be stressing less now. No exams after the 20th, and no more senior project. That was the biggest problem. Then i'll get a few months off. Which i'm excited about.
I feel like i'm growing up a little bit. I don't know why. I guess because I graduate in 2 days. Haha. I got a feverblister this morning, (surprise surprise), the day of presentation. It's like those commercials where they get the pimples on picture day. It sux. :) I'm in kind of a good mood right now and I don't know why. I'm also ready for another tat. But I already said that.
Anyways, I think that's all for now. I can't think of anything else to talk about.
2 more days. Of highschool, I mean. I would like to thank God for getting me through this tretcherous time. I am also thankful to have the senior project over with. That's a 4,000 lbs. elephant that was taken off my back. I'm sorry Jessica, and Skylar, for you having to do it next semester. Just try and start and finish early. It'll work out better. I finished mine completely today. Haha.
I feel like I'm going to be stressing less now. No exams after the 20th, and no more senior project. That was the biggest problem. Then i'll get a few months off. Which i'm excited about.
I feel like i'm growing up a little bit. I don't know why. I guess because I graduate in 2 days. Haha. I got a feverblister this morning, (surprise surprise), the day of presentation. It's like those commercials where they get the pimples on picture day. It sux. :) I'm in kind of a good mood right now and I don't know why. I'm also ready for another tat. But I already said that.
Anyways, I think that's all for now. I can't think of anything else to talk about.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
your punches taste like candy, bitch
Hahaha. This semester has gone by so fast. I'm presenting tomorrow, TOMORROW. I cannot believe that. I really hope I do good. Every time i've practiced my speech tonight i've done really good. But no matter what, tomorrow, when I get in front of those judges, i'll screw up. I have practiced over and over again. I'm pretty sure I have it down, but like I said, I WILL mess up.. somehow.
Anyways. I will be SOOOO glad to get this finished. Dear god. I'm going to throw a party for myself if I pass. Because i'm tired of working on this stupid shit.
I have 3 more days left of High School. Three days. Then I'm done. I actually get a break. Then it all starts again. Life sucks. haha.
I'm going to try to start wearing make up more, again. I just never feel like waking up early enough to put it on, and a lot of times it's hard to get off. I want another tat reallllllll bad.
And i want a few more clothes to wear. I wear the crap out of the clothes I have. I need some more money, but our hours got cut at work. So i'll probably have to work 2 jobs. Ha, wouldn't surprise me. Oh yeah, and I need some speakers for my car, cause mine are busted. EH
Anyways. I will be SOOOO glad to get this finished. Dear god. I'm going to throw a party for myself if I pass. Because i'm tired of working on this stupid shit.
I have 3 more days left of High School. Three days. Then I'm done. I actually get a break. Then it all starts again. Life sucks. haha.
I'm going to try to start wearing make up more, again. I just never feel like waking up early enough to put it on, and a lot of times it's hard to get off. I want another tat reallllllll bad.
And i want a few more clothes to wear. I wear the crap out of the clothes I have. I need some more money, but our hours got cut at work. So i'll probably have to work 2 jobs. Ha, wouldn't surprise me. Oh yeah, and I need some speakers for my car, cause mine are busted. EH
Thursday, January 7, 2010
i have my
good days and my bad days, and I wish it wasn't like that. I wish I had good days all the time.
But the good news is, i have today, and tomorrow off. I think saturday, i'm not sure. And it feels pretty amazing.
Bad news is- hours got cut at work. That seems good. But it's not, even if you want to work, you can't. It's less money. But I can't complain.
It's getting SO close to (our) graduation. I'm excited. And I'm excited to have at least a month off.
Anyways, i'm tired, and like I said, I'm going to try and do this more. But I end up waiting until the last minute, like tonight. Haha.
I'm excited to put my music on keegans ipod. I havent had an ipod in forever and she told me I could use hers since she doesn't. I even bought new headphones for it today :)
Well, goodnight and good riddance. haha.
I hope there's at least a 2 hour delay tomorrow. If not a day out.
But the good news is, i have today, and tomorrow off. I think saturday, i'm not sure. And it feels pretty amazing.
Bad news is- hours got cut at work. That seems good. But it's not, even if you want to work, you can't. It's less money. But I can't complain.
It's getting SO close to (our) graduation. I'm excited. And I'm excited to have at least a month off.
Anyways, i'm tired, and like I said, I'm going to try and do this more. But I end up waiting until the last minute, like tonight. Haha.
I'm excited to put my music on keegans ipod. I havent had an ipod in forever and she told me I could use hers since she doesn't. I even bought new headphones for it today :)
Well, goodnight and good riddance. haha.
I hope there's at least a 2 hour delay tomorrow. If not a day out.
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