my headaches

are beginning to be unbearable. They get worse and worse as the day goes on. I've been trying to sleep more, but it's not helping. I guess i'm going to have to break down and go to the eye doctor. :(

I was dissapointed in my paycheck this week, considering i've worked every single week day for the past 3 weeks. But I guess that'll be on my next check. I really can't afford to be working my ass off for nothing. I actually need money this time. Because i'm still stuck at home with no transportation.

On the other hand, Adam has been really sweet lately. Calling me more, and coming over more. I don't know what's gotten into him! haha. It's probably just a phase. Not saying he'a not sweet other times, but not much. This morning he drove us to Salisbury to eat breakfast, and then we worked on his research paper, and then he drove us to winston to go to Chilis at like 6. He held my hand a lot, which is unusual, and kissed me a lot, which is also unusual. And cuddled a lot.

Anyway, I'm still looking for a car. I've got my eye on one, but I guess we are just waiting for the money to add up. It depresses me thinking that I'm eighteen years old and don't have any way to get anywhere. But I know I will get something. Right now, with only my money, i'm at $830. I'm very proud of myself.


Wishlist-
2010 Camaro.

HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Know any generous millionares? Let me know.........

got from skylar

time started - 12:40 AM. Probably a bad idea.
full name - Kayla Breanna Tysinger
nickname(s) - toots, keela, baby
birthday - December 22, 1991
where were you born - North Carolina
height - 5'3" I NEVER KNOW THIS ANSWER
weight - 125
hair color - brown
eye color - Blue
shoe size - depends, 4 to 7
ring size - 7 I think
skin type (freckles, tan, albino, etc.) - Pale for now
blood type - I don't know
siblings - full- Keegan. Half- Seth and his new baby brother. I havent been told a name yet
tattoos - e
piercings - ears
hobbies - drawing, listening to music, playing sims, piano

favorite:
color - grey and blue
food - right now, Salami and ham flatbread with extra provolone cheeeese
candy - oreo CAKESTERS HELL YEAH
type of cheese - provolone
pizza topping - Cheese, or Hawian. Either
salad dressing - Ranch
sandwich - Salami and ham flatbread from work ^^^
cereal - fckn cinnamon toast crunch
fruit - Granny Smith Apples.
vegetable - Corn on the cob.
berry - none.
cake - Chocolate
book - Eclipse
movie - Right now, Pride and Prejudice. I LOVE movies.
tv show - Family Guy 4EVR
website - Facebook/msp
radio station - 98.7, 100.3, 102.1
font - Arial
cartoon character - Spongebob, and the Griffins.
actor - whew. that list is way too long. Rob Pattinson, Matthew MacFayden, Ed Norton, Ryan Gosling(?), James Franco, Johnny Depp
actress - Reese Witherspoon, Angelina Jolie
cd - burned cds
song - way too many to pick
music group - same as above
music type - All
day of the week - Friday or Saturday
month - December
season - Spring
holiday - Christmas
shampoo - Herbal Essence Dangerously Straight
conditioner - same ^
phrase - uhhhhhh
store - Hollister probably
weather - Warm with wind and sun. Rain late at night.
restaurant - Zaxbys. God I wish I wouldn't have thought of that.
channel - Nickelodeon
weekend activity - sleeping
hangout - mi casa
sport to watch - football or gymnastics
sport to play - football, gymnastics
animal - dog. I have a crab and a new fish!
flower - daisy
board game - 1313 Dead End Drive
party game - Strip poker? Beer pong? hahhaa
story from childhood - a lot
body part - face

have you ever:
been on a train - yes, twice
been on a plane - nope
been in a car accident - :(
caused a car accident - yeah
run into a wall - yeah
burned a potato chip - wtf?
almost burned the house down - don't think so..
smoked - yes
been drunk - yes
broken the law - yes
burned a cd (if yes, the one above is yes) - yes
kissed someone of the opposite sex - Yes
kissed someone of the same sex - yes
gotten engaged - ha. no.
had an online relationship - no
been rejected by a crush - I dont knowwwwwww
loved - Yep
made yourself cry to get out of trouble - yes, 8th grade, being pulled over, etc.
cried in public - school
cried over a movie - yeah
fallen asleep in a movie theater - STEALTH WAS BORING AS HELL. yes
given someone a bath - pets
been to a boarding school - hell no
been home-schooled - no
lost a valuable item - my car
bungee jumped - the thing at myrtle beach with the seats.
skied - snowboarded (?)
met the president - no thanks
met a celebrity - yes, a few
gotten a cavity - no
shopped at abercrombie & fitch - yeah
made a prank call - Yes
skipped school - Yes.
faked sick to get out of school - Yes.
climbed a tree - Yes.
fallen from a tree - YES:(
broken a bone - Yes.
sprained anything - yes
passed out - Yes.
made yourself pass out - don't think so
been to disney world - No.
been to a theme park (not disney) - Yes.
said i love you and meant it (not to a relative) - Yes.
made a model volcano (working model) - yes
made a clover leaf with your tounge - No, I wish, I've tried

past:
what did you do yesterday - Worked
memory you miss the most - when my dad lived with us, my life when i was little, and driving my jeep
memory you want to forget - None?
something you regretted after it was done - Idk.

the last:
song you heard - a song by tool
cd you bought - the last cd I burned - Chelsea Grin
thing you said - thing you said
time you cried - my wreck
movie seen in a theater - Avatar I think
thing you ate - oreo cakesters
person who called - adam
nail polish shade worn - yellow
time you showered - an hour ago
person who complimented you - i dont know

at this moment:
what are you listening to - George Lopez
what are you wearing - t shirt, underwear
what are you thinking - tired, work in the AM
what are you scared of most - right now, my grandparents dying.

future:
occupation - nurse. Shitload of money hopefully
marriage site - church
honeymoon - Ireland
place to live - It depends.
kids - 2
car - Black 2010 Camaro
what are you doing tomorrow - going to work and maybe a show
will there be a WWIII - prolly.
will politics ever be truthful - I don't give a shit about politics. Kiss my ass.

do you believe in:
heaven - Yes.
hell - Yes.
angels - Yes.
devil - Yes.
God - Yes.
buddha - Yes.
aliens - Yes.
ghosts - Yes.
spirit (soul) - Yes.
soulmates - Yes.
reincarnation - No.
love at first sight - no.
karma - Yes.
love in general - Yes.
luck - yes.
yourself - yes.

who and when was your first crush - Chaiffin (?) my aunts wedding when i was like 4
a celebrity crush - rob pat
whose number do you want - ^^^ :)
what is something you dont understand about the opposite sex - pervs. dumb. liking anything with a vagina.
on scale of one to ten, how romantic are you - 7. sure.
what do you look for personality-wise - pretty, funny, sweet, bigger than me
something the opposite sex wears that you like - jeans
something the opposite sex wears that you don't like - nothing really
the most romantic thing that has happened to you - uh
do you want to hug somebody right now - sure. my bear, to sleep

describe:
mellow - cooooooool
melancholy - crying
the perfect date - ireland
the perfect mate - i'm guessing adam. he's not perfect though.
why manhole covers are round - I do not care. holes are round.

one or the other:
coke/pepsi - Pepsi!
sprite/7-up - Sprite
vanilla/chocolate - Chocolate
flowers/candy - candy
book/magazine - both? i guess book
tv/radio - tv i guess
glass half empty/half full - both
democrat/republican - dgaf - it's all shit
colored pencils/markers - colored pencils get on my nerves
coffee/tea - both. But I can't drink coffee. Tea
sun/moon - Moon.
day/night - uhhh idk
hot/cold - middle
dog/cat - don't make me choose i'll feel bad.
button/zipper - zipper, i'm lazy
cotton/feather pillow - Feather, or both.
blue/purple - Blew
jeans/shorts - jeans
long distance relationship/none - i'm not sure about that one. maybe for a short period of time long distance.
mechanical/regular pencil - Depends, writing- mechanical. Drawing-regular
romantic comedy/thriller - Thriller
nsync/bsb - Nsync
peanut butter/jelly - Ew. Niether.
waffles/pancakes - Pancakes.
letter/email - Letter i guess
florida/california - never been to either.
pizza/burgers - BURGERS
hat/visor - hat
movie at home/in theater - At home

first thing you think of when you hear:
yellow - lemonade. mmm
red lipstick - marilyn monroe
socks - shoes
cowtipping - Cars, haha
moulin rouge - slut
greenland - should be green
iceland - should be ice
harry potter - hogwarts
red - MY JEEP I MISS YOU
blackberry - ew
rose - pretty
rooster - Alice in Chains.
taxes - suck... you know, thanks to OBAMA I HAD TO PAY $54 instead of getting any taxes back. FUCKER.
bill clinton - suckz
whipped cream - whipped cream
george w. bush - AMERKIN FLEG
lollipops - no one says lollipops except lil wayne apparently.
dreams - in yours
love - adam
guys - beer
south park - love it
boy bands - ha. Isn't that most bands?
pengiuns - Happy Feet
girls - sluts
death - no
spoons - sliver
junk mail - email
dairy - milk
your father - his smile and smell
pizza - no thanks
vitamin - Flinstones (?)

are you:
happy - yes
sad - No
religious - yea
crazy - at times
messy - Sometimes
mad - No
slacker - Sometimes
nerd - Sometimes
bookworm - Sometimes
jock - No
preppy - No
selfish - no
giving - Yes
obsessive - No
violent - yeah
calm - sometimes
peaceful - sometimes
mellow - sometimes
eccentric - Yes
caring - Yes
untrustworthy - No
loyal - Yes
patriotic - eh not really
colorful - sometimes
artistic - Yes

miscellaneous:
what color is your jacket - i'm not wearing one.
do you shave - yea
what color is your razor - i have a purple one, an orange one, and a light pink one
what size is your bed - double I think
what color crayon would you be - purple probably, or grey
what are the last four digits of you phone number - 2342
how long does it take you to shower - 30 minutes, I like hot water
who do you trust the most - my mom
is cussing a necessity in life - no, it's a habit
how about coffee - no
is the world screwed - probably.
what something you can't live without - sleep
what time did you fall asleep - Last night, 6 am.
can you live without a microwave - If I had to, but right now mostly all we have is microwavable food.
what do think about death - hate it
where and when do you want to be married - Not during college.
why is the sky blue - because
what is a good trait about yourself - I'm caring.
how do you react to change - Usually I don't like it.
do you talk to yourself - yeah sometimes.
what is your opinion on love - love
if you wrote a book, what would it be about - probably a fantasy book
time finished - 11:40 pm, Feb. 20. I saved it as a draft and came back to it.

blah

blah blah.

i wish i could think of something to say.

i am so sick of

work. We have a meeting tomorrow at 330, that i can't go to, but it's about me and adam closing last night. we were there until 10:30. trying to get everything done. I was shaking all night because we were so busy and i was behind. I almost cried like 5 times because i couldnt handle it. i have so much on my mind, and that just adds to it. we are in trouble because "the store was nasty" WE BARELY HAD TIME TO DO ANYTHING. i have a certain time schedule, and i was 2 and a half hours behind. and to top that off, 3 people came in a 9:55, (we close at ten), and ate in there until 10:25, which means we cant sweep or mop until they are gone. and she wants to know why the floors look bad??????

most importantly, when i got there, the 2 people that worked before me didnt do anything they were supposed to do. which leaves who to do it??? Exactly, ME. Why are they getting paid as much as me when i'm doing half of their work? Explain that.

what usually takes half an hour took me 2 hours yesterday because people kept coming in. I couldn't pick up their slack because i was there by myself from 4 to 5 with 20 people in line for an hour.

i know everyone who reads this doesn't understand it. But I have stayed 2 hours after my shift ended to help people clean plenty of time. Why the fuck do people leave me with the rest of their work to do? I do my shit for them, but they can't do it for me?

All i'm saying is, im tired of picking up everyone elses fucking slack and being the one that gets bitched at for it.

i feel like beating the fuck out of someone.

good thing i'm at home by myself right now/

Mom

got us the "Beach Bodies" work out thing. It's like p90x. I have a feeling i'm going to be busting my ass. Well, i've been wanting to do something like that, so, wish us luck. It's going to be hard.

God

I miss my car more and more everyday. And you don't know how much that is. One, I miss it because I loved it. It will probably be my favorite car of all time, no matter what I end up getting in life. Two, I spent so much time in it. Three, it ran so good, and was so comfortable. Four, I sit at home every day, alone. I used to not mind sitting at home, because if I wanted to go somewhere, I could. But I can't now. :( I miss seeing it parked in my carport. I have yet to empty the trashbag full of the things I had in there, because I know I will cry.

Someone answer this: WHY did that have to happen to me?

To someone who works for everything. And someone who can't afford to get anything else? And most importantly, someone who loved and was thankful for it.

I'm sorry that it's all I talk about. But it's all I think about lately.
It's depressing me. Yeah I know, "be thankful Im okay." Okay, I am. But I AM NOT thankful for my car being trashed. I feel 14/15 again. My grandma takes me to work, my mom picks me up. That's the only place I've been since Thursday when it happened. I'm just not used to being stuck in my house. I sit here all day. What I did today: woke up at around lunch, took a bath, watched tv, straightened my hair, watched tv, played sims, ate, watched tv.

The only good thing about it is I'm spending more time with my family.

Niether me, or my mom, have any exrra money. No money saved up. So what the fuck am I supposed to do? I guess what everyone else without cars do. But I'm not used to it.
My mom doesn't even have money for HER a car, which is why she drives my grandparent's car. The world is so fucked up.

Thanks for letting me vent, blog.

Am I

the only one who gets on here anymore?

I loved my car. :'(