I know

this is weird. But I really miss my little sister. She never talks to us anymore and she's always in her room. I know that's part of growing up, but I hate it. I want the little sister that wanted to be in my room all the time. Was hyper and loud all the time. I miss being close to her. I feel very nostalgic right now. I don't know why. I was looking at pictures of me and her, and we used to take so many together. I can't remember the last time we were even close enough to take a picture together. It makes me want to cry.

Thinking of you Darling..

Every night I rush to my bed, with hopes that maybe I'll get a chance to see you.
When I close my eyes I'm going out of my head. Lost in a fairytale, can you hold my hands and be my guide?
Clouds filled with stars cover the skies, and I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby. What kinda dream is this?
You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare, either way I don't wanna wake up from you.
My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where..Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air. 'Cause you're my sweet dream.
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare, either way I don't wanna wake up from you.
I mention you when I say my prayers, I wrap you around all of my thoughts. Boy you're my temporary high.
I wish that when I wake up you're there to wrap your arms around me for real, and tell me you'll stay by side.
Clouds filled with stars cover the skies, and I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby. What kinda dream is this?
Tattoo your name across my heart so it will remain. Not even death can make us part.
What kind of dream is this?
You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare, either way I don't wanna wake up from you.
My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where, Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air.
'Cause you're my perfect lullaby.
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you

Ahhhh

New Moon and Eclipse Pictures




New Moon and Eclipse Pictures




New Moon and Eclipse Pictures




New Moon and Eclipse Pictures




New Moon and Eclipse Pictures








He couldn't get any more gorgeous. God.

I could really use a wish right now.

Today was not a good day. For me, at least. Hopefully Julie's day was good, cause she turned 18 :)

I'm so weird. I swear. I've caught myself staring into space SO much lately. I have way too much on my mind. I can't catch up.

Tomorrow will be my relaxing day, you know, until 3 when I have to go to work. Like always. I cant have a DAY. Not one. When I do, it goes by SO fast. I told Joanna I don't know how much more I can handle. It's so overwhelming when I've been doing it for so freaking long. Months of working 6 days out of every week. The funny thing is, I don't have any money? Where did it all go? You got me.

life sucks. my boyfriend agrees.

me and my mom

watched videos and interviews of Charles Manson for hours tonight. I'm so interested in things like that. I'm so weird.
I've been reading Eclipse and I love it, it really is my escape from reality. I could read those all day everyday. Sometimes I wish it was reality, to have someone to treat you that well.
I don't think there's a man on this planet that would treat a girl like that.
And that absolutely sucks. I know girls say they have amazing boyfriends and perfect boyfriends, and my boyfriend is also a good one, but you know deep down inside how much you would trade to be the center of their world, like Bella is to Edward.
It is impossible, and that is why it pisses me off. Haha.
I'm trying to get adam to read them, or let me read them to him, to show him all the things he does for Bella. But you know boys. They refuse to like anything to do with Edward Cullen.

I just realized I had my boxers on backwards. Haha, WIN. I really need to lay down and go to sleep, but my days are never long enough, even though I do love sleep. I never want to.

I guess I'm going to go watch the nanny and try to pass out. l8tA

I try and I try.

Work sucked today, Joanna pissed me off as usual. She was being whiney so I didn't talk to her, so we didn't talk today. Haha.
I don't have another day off until next monday. Yayz.

I'm watching sixteen and pregnant. Are these the only girls they could find? There are millions of pregnant 16 year olds around here, let alone the whole country. Come on. Find some girls with some personality like the last season.

I don't really know what to talk about. Farmville is being slow, and I can't sleep.
I need something to do.

I guess i'll get off here for now.
byeeee



p.s- I am thankful for my mom. She is my best friend. I love her.

About to go to bed,

my eyes hurt. I never want the days to end.

I saw a group on facebook about Pheobe Prince and reading things like that breaks my heart.

She was bullied by a group of girls so bad that she hung herself by a staircase after school. That makes me sick. I feel bad for her, I just wish there had been someone there to stick up for her when she couldn't. This world is shit.

My little sister was being bullied like that, I think in seventh grade. Her and her friends would show me text messages the girl would send to them. She was telling people that they had crabs and would say she was going to beat them up. It doesn't seem like that big of deal to you, but to 12, 13 year olds it is. She would get in my car crying when I picked her up from school... she couldnt get on myspace without mean messages. I told her to beat the shit out of her. I would have. At 17, i was about 2 inches away from breaking some 12 year olds necks. Very close.
But when I would message the girl telling her that I knew about it and advised her to stop, she would say "oh i'm not doing that I don't know what youre talking about. I tried to talk to keegan and she wouldnt talk to me and was being mean." haha. People like that get on my nerves SO bad.

This probably doesn't mean anything to any of you, but if that girl was my little sister, or if something would've happened to her, some kids would be dead. Thanks.